Two months later, I have engaged with S in both social and intimate manner, I cannot hold back my emotions over a casual dinner in a hotel lounge. I burst out whether he was wanting to be more serious about us, he expressed himself politely that "He wanted to stay casual. He was sad because we will have to stop communicating for a while and hope we can be good friends in the future."
I realised that due to my affectionate character, I would into (the fascinated version) of a new guy I just met. We go on dates. We hang out. We enjoy intimate activities. Then I will innocently fall into love (lust).
In my self-pity days, I signed up a guide written by a relationship coach to sooth my soul. Hopefully I will do things differently next time I meet anther decent guy
